Thursday, November 19, 2015


I love this video! How inspiring is his story? I love it! And how many don't serve a mission with much less on the line if they did?
The first line of this video is so perfect. I want it on my wall! "There will always be something you leave behind when you respond to the prophets call to serve."
That is so true, but what about the blessings you gain and that others around you gain from your example and service?

No matter how you are asked to serve, you almost always have to leave something behind, but you do it anyway.  We all have times when we have to push up our sleeves and get to work. The best and easiest time is when we are serving someone we love.  But what about serving people we don't love?  Or don't even know?  That's not as easy is it?

But, I have good news for us all.  You do know who you are serving, each and every time you serve someone!
Mosiah 2:17 "And behold I tell you these things that ye may learn wisdom; that ye may learn that when ye are in the service of your fellow beings ye are only in the service of your God."

I think we've all heard of Him right?  When you serve anyone, you are serving God.  That's an easy way to look at service for me.  Even when it's hard, if I think of it being God that I'm serving then it isn't so hard. In fact, I owe him a few favors... or like everything that I am, I owe to my creator.

I love to hear stories of someone in need and the whole neighborhood jumped in to help! It makes me feel good to know that there are such inspired people in the world that are willing to do good!

Years ago in my first marriage I was really struggling.  I had to live on my knees in prayer just to get through the day.  And I did it all alone.  I was so lonely, I don't know how I survived.  Each day Heavenly Father gave me the strength to put my "Mom hat" on and take care of my children.  I wasn't just an ok Mom, I somehow had the strength to really be there for them and instruct them and teach them.  I planned fun activities for them and held my family together as best as I could, but I was still so alone.

One day a friend of mine came up to me and apologized for not coming to visit me and reach out to me. She said she felt the spirit tell her to reach out to me.  I was really taken back by this.  I had chosen not to tell anyone what was going on in my marriage.  No one knew.  I wanted to try and keep my family together and I knew if I told anyone their advice would be to "get out now", so I chose not to say a word.  It was shocking that she would be prompted to reach out to me.  However, she didn't come when I was really suffering and all alone.  Those days were really dark.  The darkest I've ever known.  I had only Heavenly Father to rely on.

Could I just make a suggestion? When you feel that prompting to reach out to someone... please do!  Things may look great on the outside, but there may be a reason the spirit has asked you to check on someone for reasons that you are unaware of.  Not all needs are publicized.  We all need to pray for inspiration to know when people around us need our help and then be willing to push up our sleeves, not just for our friends and family, but for God.

Saturday, November 7, 2015

Enemy Territory


This short video is so powerful.  I really appreciate how accurate it is for our day and age.  The war we face each day is real.

We need to follow the commandments.  All 10 of them and listen to the Spirit and we will be shielded and protected from the adversary. What a great promise that is!
Here is a list of the 10 commandments just in case you're a little rusty on them.

Ten Commandments
1.  “Thou shalt have no other gods before me”.  We should do “all things with an eye single to the glory of God”.  We should love and serve the Lord with all our heart, might, mind, and strength
2.  “Thou shalt not make unto thee any graven image”.  In this commandment, the Lord condemns the worship of idols. Idolatry may take many forms. Some people do not bow before graven images or statues but instead replace the living God with other idols, such as money, material possessions, ideas, or prestige.
3.  “Thou shalt not take the name of the Lord thy God in vain”.
4.  “Remember the Sabbath day, to keep it holy”. Our beloved prophet Gordon B. Hinckley has promised: “If you have any doubt about the wisdom, the divinity of observing the Sabbath Day, … stay home and gather your family about you, teach them the gospel, enjoy yourselves together on the Sabbath Day, come to your meetings, participate. You will know that the principle of the Sabbath is a true principle which brings with it great blessings.”
5.  “Honour thy father and thy mother”. This commandment remains binding throughout our lives and can be understood in several ways: We should honor our ancestors; we should be grateful to the father and mother who provided our earthly bodies; we should honor those who raised us in the knowledge of the truth.
6.  “Thou shalt not kill”.
7.  “Thou shalt not commit adultery”.  In a latter-day revelation, the Lord condemned not only adultery, but “anything like unto it”.
8.  “Thou shalt not steal”.  
9.  “Thou shalt not bear false witness against thy neighbor”.  
10.  “Thou shalt not covet”.  Coveting, or envying something that belongs to another, is damaging to the soul. It can consume our thoughts and plague us with constant unhappiness and dissatisfaction. It often leads to other sins and to financial indebtedness.
The Savior summarized the 10 Commandments in 2 principles—love for the Lord and love for our fellow men:
“Thou shalt love the Lord thy God with all thy heart, and with all thy soul, and with all thy mind.
“This is the first and great commandment.
“And the second is like unto it, Thou shalt love thy neighbor as thyself” 

 This week while reading the Book of Mormon I've learned a little more about keeping the commandments and the important role they play in our lives each day.  I truly believe these commandments keep us safe. Not safe from sickness or tripping and falling when we step on a banana peel, but safe from the adversary.  That's the kind of safety we should all be striving for.

Not only does the Book of Mormon remind us to keep the commandments but it also testifies of Christ.  He is the center focus throughout the entire book.  It testifies of his divinity and his attonment and love for all man kind and of his love for all mankind on every continent.  He knows each of us.  By name.  Our Struggles.  Our sorrows.  Our joys.  How much we strive to be closer to him. I pray that we keep striving to draw nearer to him.

I also thought is was interesting to read in the Book of Mormon how it was prophesied that there would be 3 witnesses. There are lots of cool things like that in the Book of Mormon!

Friday, October 23, 2015


In my Book of Mormon class, we are studying 2 Nephi 9-16 and WOW is it full of meaningful stuff!

(If you've never read of the Book of Mormon you can read it by clicking this link.)  

 First of all, I should mention that I've been trying to work on making the Savior my primary source for Joy in my life.  I'm not going to take away the love I have for my children and husband or the time I spend as a Mother and wife. Those things give me joy too, I'm just referring to my thoughts of the Savior as Joy, another emotion other than just admiration and gratitude.  But real, pure joy like I can't find anywhere else. 

It's hard to think that I could learn something new about the Savior that I don't already know. Or to think that I could feel more grateful for him and his atoning sacrifice.  But, I'm going to try and draw even closer to him.  And in just under one weeks time since I made that goal.... I ALREADY HAVE! That kinda blows me away.  "Ask and ye shall receive!" God hears your prayers and if it's a righteous desire, he will help you. Especially if your prayer is to come to know the Savior more.

On this subject, I was hit with some profound teaching in my class last night.  How did the class instructor know? I could have been put in any group of classmates to study.  And in fact a few of us had already decided to clump together and make a group and so did the rest of the class, but right before she handed out each groups study assignment, she decided to give us a number and switch things around a little more and because of that I ended up with what the other side of the room would have been asked to study. (make sense?)  The Lord works in mysterious ways.  And he has a hand in every little thing that we're involved in.

So, we were given what was considered lesson #1. (I would have ended up with lesson #5 had she not split us up.  A great lesson but not nearly as profound for my new goal of learning more and finding more Joy in the Savior.)  The lesson was finding cause and effect in 2 Nephi 9:4-27

-vs 4-9 Is summarized by saying- Because of the atonement we shall overcome the grave.  Because of transgression there is spiritual dearth but Atonement overcomes both.  And here's the cool part that I hadn't ever even KNOWN or thought of before..... If there was no atonement we would be angels to Satan!  Did you know or ever think about that before?  See what I mean about asking Heavenly Father to draw nearer to the Savior?  If you want knowledge about his only begotten... lesson learned, ye shall receive it! And within just a few days too! 

-vs 10 paraphrased: Because of the Savior we can escape the grasp of that awful monster.... What a way to phrase it! That really gives me... just off the top of my head... JOY!  Jesus Christ's mission on earth was successful!  He did it!  It's not like I never thought about how hard it was for him before, but I definitely didn't think about 'what if it wasn't successful'. Then what?  I usually just thank him for his life and atonement and perfect example and teachings.  I am a Christian.  I think of his perfect life all the time.  But, wow to think of what would have happened if he decided, "this is too hard."  But, he didn't, he really saved me from Satan's grasp! What an image!!!
I kinda came at this, my whole life, from the view point of, he did what he was asked and it was the most precious gift he could have given. To atone for my sins and then give his life for me.  Do you see what I'm getting at?  Anyone else feel like this is another view point that they hadn't thought of before?  This is Another reason to have Joy in the Savior.... He didn't just save me from my sins, he saved me from Satan.

-vs 13- 20 If we follow the plan we will be restored spirit and body with a perfect knowledge as our reward! (nice.  I'll take it!) His plan had to be fulfilled! Obviously or we'd be lost, not just in sin but His mercy delivers us from Hell. He knows all! He is great!

So, we already knew that Jesus Christ was Jehovah in the Old Testament and was the God of Abraham. He was Heavenly Father's greatest gift to mankind. (John 3:16).  And while learning about Lehi's dream Nephi asked to have the same dream and was shown more detail, in fact was guided by the Holy Ghost himself.  I found it particularly sweet and poignant when Nephi asked what the tree of life represented and the spirit showed him Mary holding the baby Jesus.  Now that is a gift!  That image was very powerful in terms of what Heavenly Father really gave to us... his literal son to be sacrificed so that we could all come back to live with him again.  And tying both those examples together of Jehovah from the Old Testament and God's gift to us, it's important to point out that Jesus Christ is the Mediator and only link to Heavenly Father.  We would not be able to pray to him or have any communication with him if the Savior hadn't fulfilled his mission.  More blessings than we can comprehend... but we're getting there guys. slowly but surely.... "line upon line, precept upon precept".
We also understood that Christ had to "buy" us with His life so that we would be in complete debt to Him, in order to be able to offer us the law of mercy and have a chance that we would accept it.  (Anyone else thinking about the war in heaven right now? And how we chose to follow the plan of salvation? The more I study, the more in awe I become of how perfect this plan really is.)

So now we can add to our knowledge that because of Jesus Christ's mortal ministry we are literally saved from Satan's grasp!  I feel Joy in that! Pure Joy! "O how great the goodness of our God, who prepareth a way (The plan of Salvation) for our escape from the grasp of this awful monster; yea, that monster, death and hell, which I call the death of the body, and also the death of the spirit." 2 Nephi 9:10

For a simple version of the Plan of Salvation click here.

Or - For a more in depth talk on the Plan of Salvation click here.

Some other things I've learned this week that were presented in a way that made things I already knew stand out even more were:

The prophet Isiah really did see some amazing things. Things that he didn't' have the right words to describe.  If you read Isiah in the Bible or 2 Nephi you'll understand what I mean.  He saw people gathering to a place with mountains to establish the Lords house.  It has flooded my mind with the hymn High On the Mountain Top.  Read the words and you'll know what I mean.  I could go on and on about how my ancestors left everything behind and packed up their children and came to Utah because of their great love of the Savior and his restored gospel.  I have several stories just in my family alone of that exact scenario of packing up their kids or sometimes coming alone leaving their parents and family and friends behind to follow their heart to help build up the kingdom of God in Utah. Utah! Of all places.  How would you have told your family and friends over 100 years ago why you were going so far away?  Only a true and deep testimony of the Savior and his gospel would cause anyone to travel across oceans to a place they new little about in a desert. I'm thankful every day that they did. And that they found Joy in the Savior enough to press forward and establish my home here in Utah!

Here are some words that both Modern day and original Pioneers have sung about Joy in the Savior.

Come Come Ye Saints
 "Come, come, ye Saints, no toil nor labor fear;
But with JOY wend your way.
Though hard to you this journey may appear,
Grace shall be as your day."
There journey was hard.  And they still did it because of the Joy they felt in the Savior.
Come, Ye Children of The Lord
"Earth shall then be cleansed from sin.
Ev'ry living thing therein---
Shall in love and beauty dwell;
Then with joy each heart will swell.
 Oh, how joyful it will be
When our Savior we shall see!"
I know that My Redeemer Lives
" He lives! All glory to his name!
He lives, my Savior, still the same.
Oh, sweet the joy this sentence gives:
"I know that my Redeemer lives!"
He lives! All glory to his name!
He lives, my Savior, still the same.
Oh, sweet the joy this sentence gives:
"I know that my Redeemer lives!"'
On This Day of Joy and Gladness
 "On this day of joy and gladness,
Lord, we praise thy holy name;
In this sacred place of worship,
We thy glories loud proclaim!"
I love that we are referred to as "His Glories". 
There is Sunshine in My Soul Today  
This whole song is just Joy in the Savior!
  1.  There is sunshine in my soul today,
    More glorious and bright
    Than glows in any earthly sky,
    For Jesus is my light.
    Oh, there's sunshine, blessed sunshine
    When the peaceful happy moments roll.
    When Jesus shows his smiling face,
    There is sunshine in the soul.
    2. There is music in my soul today,
    A carol to my King,
    And Jesus listening can hear
    The songs I cannot sing.
    3. There is springtime in my soul today,
    For when the Lord is near,
    The dove of peace sings in my heart,
    The flow'rs of grace appear.
    4. There is gladness in my soul today,
    And hope and praise and love,
    For blessings which he gives me now,
    For joys "laid up" above.

President Thomas S. Monson gave a talk on choices that we make each day and he reminded us that the gate to historical change swings on small hinges. Meaning that the small things we do will have a large impact in our lives and in our history as people on earth. Those hinges are small but it swings a large gate! Today and for the rest of my life I chose to find Joy in the Savior! He is my greatest source of Joy! I'm so very thankful for answered prayers and a knowledge that He listens to me every time I pray.  He knows who I am, what I struggle with and he gives me tender mercies to help me through this mortal journey.

The whole reason for the Joy is because someone loved us enough to sacrifice them self so we can return to live with our Heavenly Parents again.  I love my Savior for what he's sacrificed for me! I know one day I'll live with my Heavenly Father and Mother again if I keep the commandments and endure to the end. "When I leave this frail existence, when I lay this mortal by, Father, Mother, may I meet you In your royal courts on high? Then, at length, when I've completed all you sent me forth to do, with your mutual approbation let me come and dwell with  you."

Wednesday, October 21, 2015

Anxiety attacks

About 3 years ago, I suffered from overwhelming Anxiety attacks/Panic attacks.  Which is which?  I don't know.  If I had to pick one... I'd go with Panic!  Anxiety sounds like a walk in the park compared to the feeling of panicking!  And that's what it was... sheer panic!

There was a lot of stress in my life at the time.  Thinks that are hard to even believe now, really happened to me and my family.  This is one of those things (I've had a few) that you can look back on and ask "how the heck did I survive that time in my life?".  But, here I am.

Side Note: It is true what they say, if it doesn't kill you it will make you stronger.

Anyway, I really thought I was dying of something.  In my mind, I was either having a sever allergic reaction to something that was killing me, or I was just suffering from some sort of disease that I didn't know about my whole life.

I went to the ER a handful of times. nothing.  They all told me I was fine.  In fact, they would point out that I'm in tip top shape. awesome.  Now what?

I thought these doctors were missing something or maybe dumb?

Through prayer and more prayer and more prayer and more prayer, I finally accepted the fact that this is all in my head.  But, it sure seemed real.  I KNEW I was dying.  I knew something was really wrong.  My heart would race and I'd start to pace and I knew once that happened, it was only a matter of time before I was going to go into full on panic! Crying and hyperventilating and shaking.  If you aren't aware that it's just a panic attack, you can see why people feel like they're dying of something.

I started taking some herbs that help me to calm down.  They were called calm tabs.  And they did pretty good, but it wasn't until I saw a women by the name of Sarah Williams in Farmington UT, that I finally started to "fix" myself.

I don't know the best way to describe her other than to say she deals with holistic's and was amazing!  A friend of mine, Rachel told me to go see her.  She said that this woman had a gift that was undeniable.  So, I booked an appointment and went.  She asked me about my divorce and she knew so many things that about me that no one knew!  It was beyond amazing.

She told me what drops to buy and put in my water and even if it was Dumbo's magic feather, they worked.  In a big way. 

I don't use them anymore.  And I haven't seen her in over a year but, just knowing that someone had answers and could help made all the difference in the world for me. 

I always talk about her to people and tell them they need to see her but, what I really need is for my kids and husband to see her! Maybe she can make them clean up after themselves!  I need a cure for that for sure!

Things that help during a panic attack:

1-Lots of water! Keep chugging!  That has helped almost every time since I figured out what was going on with me mentally.

2-  Breathe slowly. In fact hold your breath and count to 10 and then let it slowly out.

3- occupy your mind with something tedious.  Most of the time, I was fine if my mind was thinking about something else.  If I was busy I was totally fine.  Most attacks came when I wasn't busy.  So start counting something to "change the subject" in your mind.

4- STAY AWAY FROM CAFFEINE!  That might need to happen for the rest of your life! Do it though!

5- If you live in Utah go see Sarah Williams 801-540-1963